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    Respect

    We all want different things out of life – riches, power, satisfaction of making a positive change, health, happiness, love or something else. Underlying all these, there is primary need that all humans crave – the need to be respected. No matter how confident, how secure, how rich we might be, we still crave to be respected. Yes, at times, we might chose to give up or ignore this need for a purpose, but it definitely cannot be ignored for a long time.  While we all expect to be respected, we fail so often to respect others around us. When all of us understand this need so well, how can we fail…

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    The world changes when you know how to read

    Am experiencing the most amazing transformation unfolding before my eyes as my daughter finally realizes she can read. All around us, boards which used to be just random colors and lines are now information just waiting to be discovered. A Mc Donalds hoarding is no longer just a picture about a burger, it is information about a new Egg burger and therefore needs more attention, some analysis and more animated discussions. It is so much fun to walk around on the streets with her, as she reads signs, posters, papers and tries to make sense of a brand new world.  To me, who has known to read for as long as I…

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    Purpose of Anger

    Have been thinking about different emotions lately and was subject to another strong one today. It was strong enough that it made me stop and think about it. So here goes – I was angry today on things that are completely beyond my control. Was upset, hurt, frustrated, and any other adjective that comes along. Was guilty of not being able to control the emotion and ended up letting it all out on a poor soul. Once the damage was done, I had no choice but to coil back into my dark shell and try to analyze the situation more objectively.  I realized there was no purpose solved by getting…

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    Missing Someone

    I have been missing someone all day and have been thinking why do we miss certain people when they are not around us. Is it because we are so used to having them around us, that when they are not there, something just feels amiss? That would mean that people are like furniture in our lives, we are just used to having them there. I am not too happy with that line of thought and don’t think that is the only reason we miss someone.  To analyze it more, I tried to think, what exactly is that I am missing about the person. Some things that came to mind instantly…

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    What we want – musings from a tired mind

    When we are children, we want to grow up! When we grow up, we want to be children! When our children behave like children, we want them to grow up! When our children behave like grown ups we want them to behave like children!!!  I think we don’t really know what we want. Or rather, more accurately, we know what we want when we don’t have it. If this hypothesis was true, it means that I want something because I don’t have it, not necessarily because I need it or I love it. If we were to analyze each want in that spectrum, would it help us differentiate between what we really need/love vs.…

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    The Writer’s Bug

    I finally admit – I have been bitten and that too, by no ordinary bug but one of the deadliest – The Writer’s Bug! For those who have started following me recently, you ought to believe me; I used to be perfectly normal before I was bit. I was like any ordinary human who used to hate traffic jams, be scared of conversations with strangers, be revolted with muddy water clogged roads, and be angry when my car was stranded in the middle of nowhere.  Since I’ve been bit, I am no longer me. Traffic jams seem like a golden opportunity to slow down and soak in the world around me. I…

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    Why cant it see what I see?

    Today was a beautiful day. We went to the movie, played in the park, enjoyed a boat ride, loaded ourselves with junk food and ended the day with some lazy conversations on the park bench. Life is surely good!  All through the day, came numerous memorable moments which struck my thoughts and my sight. My thoughts took form of words and poured out so easily. However, I had to take help of some technology to capture what my eyes saw. I was using what we call a camera but it refused to comply. When I saw the soft curls, flushed cheeks, twinkling eyes of my daughter, the camera just saw…

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    Are you crazy!?!

    Some of my friends think I am absolutely crazy. And thankfully they are true enough to tell it to my face. The best part is – I already know that and I am proud of the fact. I guess that makes me even more crazier. Anyhow, my question is – who in this sane world isn’t crazy? In my opinion, all of us are little bit crazy about something or someone. Some of us, like me, are nuts about everything and everyone. Some others chose to conveniently change the definition of being crazy to avoid falling into that category. However, I would still snugly fit them into the same category.  I have…

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    Who am I

    Who am I Where did I come from Questions I asked from time to time One day I realize It doesn’t matter Where I came from and where I’ve been All that matters is where I am and what love means to me One baby step at a time, I tread forward A minute life in the vast dreariness of life Soon it dissipates, gushes out into the emptiness What is left is the body I used to call mine Was it worth it, I ask now? To have used a life but not lived it Would I ever be given another chance to a new life Would I still ask…

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    Matrix

    We call our mom “Matrix”. Don’t know when and why we started calling her this, but it seems like forever. People ask us – what does Matrix mean? To me “Matrix” means a complex structure made up of many layers. It is impossible to understand the whole structure unless you understand each layer at a time.  Out of curiosity, I also decided to search the meaning of Matrix. To my surprise I found a completely new meaning. As per dictionary.com, Matrix is something that constitutes the place or point from which something else originates, takes form, or develops. I thought this makes complete sense because Mom is the place where we all start from – physically, emotionally and spiritually. My Matrix to me is the pillar on which…