School started today and life goes back to the old humdrum of living by the clock. Did I miss it? Not one bit! Am I looking forward to it? Definitely yes! How can someone look forward to something, when it wasn’t even missed in the first place? The answer lies deep in the fascinating mysteries of a mothers heart! As a mother, I love everything about my daughter! Relaxing and rolling around with her in the holidays was fun, but school is going to be it’s own kind of fun. Poking her in the morning to wake her up, dressing her up for school, dropping her to the bus, and the continuous bick bick that goes on between the two of us all the way, are all moments I love to start my day with. My favorite part of the whole routine is to pick her back from school. As her bus nears the stop, my heart starts racing to get a glimpse of her again. And the most amazing thing is that I can see the same emotion in her eyes as well. The minute she sees me, her eyes light up and all the hundred stories of the day are lined up for the 5 minute walk back to home.
It is indeed a wonder that I still feel this way about sending her to school. After all, she has been in school for over 4 years now. But the feeling is as fresh as it was the first year. While she will continue to go to school and my heart will continue to beat the same way for her, I know, the time will come soon, when she will stop noticing me as she does now. When she came back from school today, someone commented she is almost as tall as my shoulder. My instant reaction was not pride, it was a pang – “Already?”
Being a mother is the most rewarding and at the same time the most painful role that any one can play. The bewildering fact is that even the pain is considered a reward for being a mother!!