We call our mom “Matrix”. Don’t know when and why we started calling her this, but it seems like forever. People ask us – what does Matrix mean? To me “Matrix” means a complex structure made up of many layers. It is impossible to understand the whole structure unless you understand each layer at a time.
Out of curiosity, I also decided to search the meaning of Matrix. To my surprise I found a completely new meaning. As per dictionary.com, Matrix is something that constitutes the place or point from which something else originates, takes form, or develops. I thought this makes complete sense because Mom is the place where we all start from – physically, emotionally and spiritually. My Matrix to me is the pillar on which I stand, the net which will catch me when I fall, the silver lining behind each dark cloud, and the smile I look up to whenever I have tears in my eyes.
Matrix is the source which has always provided, but never taken anything from anyone. Strong, dependable, bluntly honest, beautiful, graceful, loving are just some of the adjectives that come to my mind when I think of her. When we were children, she shielded us from the harshest storms. Yet, when the time came, she left us alone to fight our battles. She laughed with us and cried with us. I know many times when we were scared, she was equally or perhaps even more scared than us. After all, we were only scared for ourselves, but she was scared for all of us combined.
Looking back, I wish I was bigger, more sensible, more stronger so that I could have helped her and talked to her and provided for her. I guess my wish was finally granted and as she grows older, I grow bigger, stronger, and hopefully more sensible.
Love you Matrix, beyond what words can tell! Wish you a very happy birthday!! We will always be there for you!