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There is always a unique sense of satisfaction, pride and gratitude in knowing that you are pregnant. In the literal sense, pregnancy means that you have been chosen to create another life right inside of you. In the metaphorical sense, it means that you have been entrusted with creating something bigger than you, yourself. It could be a painting, an organization, a community or even a Government. In the metaphorical sense, you can be pregnant with an idea that you nurture and seep inside you. It eats the food that you eat and breathes the air that you take. Once you know you are aware of this new life breathing inside you, there is no going back to life as it was. This new life and its impressions on you can never be eradicated. You just continue moving forward to provide nourishment to this tiny entity till it is big enough to live and breathe on its own. Even if you eject this entity using unnatural force, it would have left its mark on you, leaving you wondering for the rest of your life, “What if, you hadn’t…”.
I guess, I have been blessed to be physically pregnant twice. I am happy to say that I am pregnant again; this time in the metaphorical sense. The entity living inside me is a girl. It is a girl; I like to call “Tara” (meaning “A Star” in Hindi). Tara was conceived in St Malo, a small fort city on the coast of France in the cold month of March, 2016. Like my other two children, Tara was conceived along with my partner, out of love, passion and a desire to bring into this world an entity who will make this world a better place. Sounds bull shit optimistic, I know. But then, isn’t this what we would want to believe when we know we are pregnant! Tara is the embodiment of my thoughts and opinions of life as I see it. Tara is the leading lady of my first book. She will live the life I create for her.
Needless to say, I am super excited to know that I am finally pregnant with the idea of my first book. Going forward all my spare time will go into giving Tara the form, the values and the stories that Tara deserves. Therefore, dear readers, I am going to step back a little, from my attempts of writing anything and everything that crosses my mind.
Even though, I do not hear from many of my readers regularly, I honestly believe that many of you out there are waiting for my next blog. I therefore thought it best to share why my blogs are now going to be more infrequent. Having said that, I request all of you to stand by me during these nine long months when I bring Tara to life and when I will definitely go through phases of self-doubt and panic attacks. I will try and keep you posted on how Tara is developing along, but in case I don’t feel like it (because of my pregnancy blues), feel free to check on me from time to time.
I have nine months of hard work in front of me and I am super excited about it! Hoping to bring Tara out live and kicking, right on time!
P.S. The artwork for the book will be done by none other than Bhaargavi Toyna Kota. I haven’t told her about it, but I guess I can convince this budding artist to do me this favor.